To long for and to feel deep lack, presents an interesting encounter with myself!
When I long for something that I lack – I meet the shattering reality of vulnerability.
In vulnerability, I am exposed! I feel naked.
This moment is either great freedom – or a shocking encounter with vulnerability/ weakness.
Freedom -if I’ve learned the glory of being beloved, desirable, unrestricted and unashamed.
Weak – if I feel exposed, open to ridicule, aggressive depersonalization and risking harm.
Shame tells me which way I went.
If I cry for that which I can not exist without, I find hopelessness waiting at the door.
Unrequited longing is exhausting! Who needs it??
So I bury it and pretend that I can survive independently.
This calls out of me a humility that reveals my character. I am complete yet vulnerable.
My life’s trauma does not determine my humility. Humility arises through courage.
Have I risen to the challenge of facing that my natural state is naked!
The wonder of the gift of love comes in my weakness and acknowledged need.
I need you! I stand naked and unashamed knowing that vulnerability releases greatness.
In your eyes I find me and am infinitely fulfilled!
Author – Bill Tidsbury